It's Sunday!!!

I've been away from the alcohol since last Sunday, YEAH ME!!  Busy day, but thankful I am on the right path!!

Saturday and I feel Free!!

I am so happy today, my husband and I talked about my first meeting and was very proud that I took the step and followed through, he did laugh when I told him the area I went to.  He said next time I should go somewhere safer, LOL, it was a bad area!!!  But at least I went!!  We started to make plans so if we go out with friends how he can help me to not drink, or when we go to our regular places.  I'll go to the rest room and he'll order me a water or a diet coke, so I always have something in front of me so that no one tries to buy me a drink or send me one.  We have a lot to talk about, but I was very happy with how he reacted!!!

I think I was hating him yesterday because  I was being really sensitive because I knew we had to have the talk about me going to the meeting.

New day, very happy, I have been of the juice since last Sunday, I feel good!!

Well my iPhone works with the blog, so that a plus, I'm turning of the car and going in, I have butterflies and my hands are clamy & shaking....

Let's see if this works, I'm outside the meeting, I gotta do this

OFF TO MY 1ST MEETING!!!!!!

Lots to say about last night, but thankfully not a drink!!  gotta run, nervous!!!  I'm praying for the strength to walk in the doors!!!

Day 5, Feeling good about not slipping!!!

I am proud today, I didn't slip last night.  THANK GOD!!

Busy day today, I have to keep my focus going today.  Looking forward to my 1st meeting tomorrow, well maybe not looking forward, I am really nervous, but I have to keep thinking positive about it!!

Day 4, the big challenge, CRAZY clients

Today is maybe going to be difficult, I have some very needy pain-in-ass people today!!!  They suck the soul from you, o.k., they may not be that bad, but they do test my patience!  I will focus on getting through the day, I still have  a lot of work due for Thursday morning since I basically had to rewrite my paper, UGH!!!  I may not get in until 8 or so, hopefully hubby will pull some dinner together, ya right, LOL!!!

Day 4 I'm up to it, I'll stay focused, I feel good this morning.  I did have some CRAZY dreams last night, really weird.  Hopefully my thoughts will keep getting clearer.

Hope everyone stay sober today!

Day 3

Well I've made it to my 3rd day.  I was just on Emily's blog, everyone their is so amazing, it is nice we are all doing it together.  I had a rough night, couldn't sleep, not sure if I was focusing on not drinking so much that I worked myself up!!  Today is a day I would enjoy getting some vodka and chilling out while my husband is taking a class.  Tonight I have a lot to do, a lot of school work, I need to stay focused!!!  I am freaking out though, my work program is messed up and I can't get a hold of the support people, I need that program fixed or I'm screwed!~~

Well it's a beautiful day today, I'm opening up all the windows, getting some fresh air in the house, let all my thoughts of a drink go out the windows!!!  I can be strong today!!!  I can do it!!!

My first day!

Even if nobody reads this, this is for me, an online diary. I'm glad I went to the emilyism blog.  I saw her on Dr. Phil.  She is an inspiration, along with everyone else on her site!  I know I have a drinking problem, it all started when I was trying to relax when my husband was very ill.  I would be at the hospital by 6am and not get home until 9 at night, so worried I was going to loss the one person in my life I needed more than anything!!  I lost my father when he was 40 and my husband at the time was 38!!  We were only married about 6 months before he became ill.  I had been married before, but I never felt completed or safe.   
My current husband is a kind, loving man, I couldn't have asked for anyone that I would be better suited to be with, I need to get sober so I can enjoy everything in our lives.  I am blessed to have him, I don't want to lose him and I feel like this could be the step in the right direction.