Yesterday, I hope is a turning point for me. Life hasn't been so great lately, actually it has really sucked. I tried to go without meetings and I can't do it. Yesterday when I woke up I thought I was going to be getting a divorce. I hope this was my bottom, I can't have anymore bottoms like this, I was a mess. I found a meeting close by and went.
First off nothing I do is ever easy and for some reason afterwards it gives me a chuckle. I went to the meeting that was to be in the basement of a church, I show up and park and see NO BODY, except an old priest, and 2 old men, UGH!! I call the AA hotline for the area and make sure there is going to be a meeting, just in case it was canceled, he said go in, I said I'm afraid the priest will ask me why I was there. Irish Catholic Guilt!!! I ran to a side door and was able to get in, but not a soul around, after about 5 minutes I found a janitor and he then had to escort me to another building where the meeting was. I was tearing up when he asked what I was looking for......I was already a mess. He took me over and I opened the door and their was about 40 people already starting the meeting, I felt like everyone was STARING at me ( but later I realized they weren't really). I sat down and followed along with their reading. Then it was my turn to read and say my name and I LOST IT!!! BLAHHHHHHHHHH, I passed on reading. A nice women came and took me outside. She has been sober for 22 years, she was so nice and kind. After we were reading and took a break a few people came up and said hello and told me it will be o.k. All these people were so nice and kind. I am so glad I went!!! Someone gave me her number if I needed anything. I think I will continue to go to this group and find some more!!
Thank God for 2nd and 3rd and 4th etc.......... Chances!!