Therapists are INSANE!!

I have a client here right now that is making me nuts, 23 days ago I would have to go get a bottle of vodka after her, not today. She is a therapist and has more problems than anyone I ever met, I'll listen to her bull shit if she would pay me what she gets paid an hour!!!! Ugh!! Just had to get it out!! You drive me crazy, you crazy bitch!!!

My new job, being SOBER!

Well it is Monday and I have my last final for the semester tonight at 7.  I came to school early for quiet and to study, but I keep playing on the Internet, LOL!!

I am very happy to say I am still sober, my date started on April 26th!!!  I have been so busy with my new job of being sober.  I have been attending as many meetings as possible.  I went to a new one this past Saturday at 9:30 in my town.  I was scared SHITLESS!!!  I was afraid I was going to see someone who knew me.  Well I didn't, and you know what if I did, OH WELL, I see you too!!!  Everyone at the meeting were so welcoming to me, and I could walk there, it it only about 2 miles at the most away!!  I went to a beginners meeting Sunday early, it was great everyone under a year with sobriety speaks, then the "old timers" speak.  It's really refreshing, they want to hear what we have to say so they can be reminded about how bad it is and that they do not want to go back.  The meeting after was a speaker meeting and it was o.k., it is usually better, but the speaker was a know it all kind of guy, it was a little bit of a turn off, but next week they will have someone else.

My meeting this morning was great, it talked about working on yourself when you have extra time and done, my teacher is a drip !!!!

Have a grateful Monday!

On break from a great meeting!!! I'm feeling weepy today, I'm not sad, just overwelmed and happy to still be sober!!

19 Days!! Thank you God and all my support!! I feel great!

Old habits are hard to shake!!

I am still sober, thank god, 17 days, 398 hours, YEAH!!!  Old habits are hard to break though, my husband just came home from work early to get something.  It was weird, I actually felt like I was doing something wrong, but I wasn't!!  Normally if he came home early I would have to run and hide my mug of vodka somewhere and drink a diet coke to try to hide the smell, ya, that fools them, LOL!!!  Today I didn't have to, but out of old habits I  started to feel the adrenaline rush I used to feel, the nervousness!!!  I thought, OMG he's home!!! Then I had to stop my self and say, SO WHAT!!  It's o.k.  Now I can get an early kiss hello!!  It is so weird how our minds think and trick us sometimes.  I heard something cool at a meeting today and I am sure it's nothing new, just new to me.  " don't go with the 1st thought you think"  That just really clicked for me.  The 1st thing I thought was Oh Snap, I'm going get caught.  I am thankful today I didn't have really have to worry about being caught, because I am sober today!!

Have a great day!!

At the Dallas airport on a lay over. I made mindful choice to go to a Mexican Resturant for lunch because I hate margaritas and tequila!!! Enjoying my diet coke, been sober 12 straight, wonderful days!!!

Isn't it funny how people talk about drinking all the time!!! I never noticed until now, on facebook someone just told me to have a drink by the pool. No thank you, I hope never again!!!!

Right now I am sober and peaceful.

10 days sober, one day at a time!!

Have a peaceful day!

I'm at the airport, getting a diet coke and a salad. I'll most likely call someone ehen I'm done. I feel strong now, but I'm sure the craziness wants out!!

213 hours, YEAH!!

Well, I'm home alone and sober, thank God!!!
I'm nervous about tomorrow, I have to fly alone, I have to stay away from the airport bar!!!!
I am going to work hard at keeping my mind off drinking.

Miss you Dad

 I Miss you dad, 21 years ago you were taken from us.  I think of you all the time and I know you are helping me to be strong and sober.  I have felt you near me when I needed you, and I know I will need you even more as I continue to stay on my sober path.  I always remember you with a smile and I hope I make you proud.  Thank you for guiding me to Joe, he is kind, loving and forgiving just as you were.  Please keep smiling down on me!!

I love you always.......

Monday Meeting

Off to my Monday meeting, my first full week of meetings and sobriety!!!  Yeah Me!!!

Sunday, went to another meeting

Went to another meeting this morning, someone was celebrating a year sober, it was comforting to hear the stories about how many times he had tried and when he let himself get back into the wrong place after 8 months, because he though he knew it all, that is something to always remember.

one minute at a time on Sober Sunday!

Saturday night and I am alone but I'm SOBER!!

I was afraid today would come.  I had to take my husband to the airport because he is going away for work.  I was afraid I would stop and buy some vodka, but I didn't!!!  I brought my AA book with me just in case I stopped so I could read it.  I went to the grocery store, bought dinner and went straight home to the dogs.  I am so happy, one minute at a time!! I went to another meeting yesterday and it was great, and I am going tomorrow at 10.  It's hard, but I really have to keep strong. I watched 20/20 from last night, it reminds me a lot of how I am.  Hiding bottles, taking them to other places to throw them out, drinking early.  It was really something I needed to see.

I hope everyone has a sober night!