UPDATE on my husband: He is doing a tad bit better. He spoke with the new therapist, who actually ended up being a women I was seeing, he really liked her. He also went and his Dr. changed his meds a bit. I feel like he is out if the darker part for now. Now he is going through a remorse part. He regrets what he has said, is very apologetic. I feel bad for him, his emotions are all over, now he is just sorry.
This weekend I am going out of town to check on my moms house and go to the cemetery. I am excited that I am staying at my friends B&B and I will have some time alone with my friends. My husband was originally going to come, but with how he is feeling it is best if he just stays home and relaxes. I know I am looking forward to some time just to be on my own.
I am starting summer session soon. I am actually taking 6 classes. I am taking more because I want to have the major classes done by the end of Fall semester. The only thing I will have left in the spring will be some electives. The reason I am doing this is because I am not sure if when my husband works things out, if we'll still be together. I don't know what will happen with us. I told him to work on his things first, get in a good place mentally and see where I fit in, if I do. One thing is for sure, I am going to get my associate degree and continue forward and he is NOT going to manipulate me into not finishing. he tries to make me feel like I am not taking care of him when I am busy at school. I am going to remember that in the end I need to take care of me.