I am moving on Saturday and I am a bit stressed. I need to make my lists and get things done. It is so hard with my husband putting his thoughts in on everything. I really see how self centered he is. All he does is complain about things he will have to do when I am gone. He doesn't even get it that I am the one leaving everything!! I am the one changing my life!!! When I say something to him, he says, well your the alcoholic, I don't love you because you were a drunk!! How quickly he forgets his part in our marriage. It's so crazy, but if that how he has to be, fine!!! I can't defend myself, it doesn't matter, he knows only his truth!! If that makes him feel better. I can't keep score.
Last night was my Tuesday night meeting with all my friends. I love them all. I walked in and my friend Christine, who will have 28 years this weekend asked me to share. It was wonderful to share and say good bye and thank you to everyone!!! I love these people. They have helped me so much, I will always love them and be grateful to them!! It felt good to share because their were 4 new people that I have been talking with over the last 2 weeks and they came to this meeting, so I really wanted to the share with them the blessings I have received from AA and my HP. I know I am going through a lot, but I also have been given so much, I have been given the strength to get through this!!! It was a beautiful night and I will hold on to it for a while. People spoke of similar situations and a man who never shares shared and said he really connected with my story. He talked about what he was going through and reached out for help form the other people in the group. He has 12 years, but he is in a bad place and needed to be connected to more people, it was so nice to hear him share.
I hope everyone is doing well and staying strong. We are the only ones responsible for our sobriety!!! I must always hold on to that. I got my self drunk, I got myself sober, and with God's help I'll stay that way~~~