This is something I think I take for granted and I have to remember to always have graditude. I am living in a bit of fear right now, but I am trying to stay in the day. I am still waiting on something's to fall into place, but if they don't go as I need them to I have to adjust and move forward. I have to remember how lucky I am that my mother left me a little bit of money. Without it, I would still be stuck living with my husband! I am finding that I have more serenity now that I am alone. Isn't that funny, a drunk who felt so alone now LIKES to be alone, and not in an isolating way! I am taking care of my needs for once in my life! I am not sure if I've ever said this before, but I was married before. It waws awful! I mean he was (looking back and now knowing what I know) an alcoholic and a gambler. He stole from everyone and left me penniless. I had to start my life over because I "took care" of him. That is one of my patterns that was revealed to me in my 4th step. I am a care giver to a fault! Anyway, that's a whole big long story, but finally I am ok being alone and I'm trying to pick things back up. My husband has been contacting me, but only when he can't figure something out. He has already messed up the bills and bitched at me about things I have nothing to do with, but I am still free being so far away! I know if I was closer I would be right there to help him. Hopefully he is still getting the help he needs, I do want him to be happy.
Some really wonderful news! I found a nice group of women, people who work and live the program, and they ask me to go to an AA cookout at the one women's house. I am so excited! I feel like I will finally find some good support down here. I am very outgoing, but shy, weird I know! I hope I can just go with the flow and not be nervous!!
Hope eeryone is doing well, I have a lot to be thankful for and it's all because I am sober. If I wasn't nothing would be falling into place because I would be relying only on myself, not my HP!