Seriously!! I am not even going to talk about alcohol, alcohol only makes douche bags worse!! I am still in a funny spot right now, I am anxious, and upset and hopefully all at once. I am giving it to my HP, sometimes it's hard though, I know things will work out, I will know things soon, but I just wanted to relax tonight and treat myself to a nice dinner. So I go to this place, sit at the end of the bar, because I didn't want to ask for a table for 1. I was ok, knew what I wanted, then she came. An ugly, nasty person (douche bag)!! I know, I am being so awful and I shouldn't be like this, but I can say what I want, LOL!! She was loud, and I don't even think she was drunk. She was nasty to her husband, bitched and complained about everything and everyone in her family. It was unbelievable, and of course she sat her nasty ass right next to me!!! UGH!! All I can say is her husband just listened, keep saying ok, tried to give her the other side of the story, then she would yell at him!!!
Why do nasty people get the men that will stay with them no matter what, stick by their side, love them no matter how nasty they are. I am still so upset and hurt about everything that is going on with my husband. I tried really hard to do my best, even when I was drinking I was a pretty good wife. I think tonight hearing that nasty women just set me off!!! I just think I feel like I got shafted. I am jealous I guess, I am jealous I didn't end up with someone who would love me forever. I know I am better off and I know my husband didn't chose to have his breakdown and depression and all the other stuff, but I am just greiving I guess. Grieveing what I never had, someone who loved me unconditionally!!
F that douche bag, LOL!!!! I know this is such a nasty post, but I am just feeling sad for myself today!!