What a differance a day makes.

Wow, Irene blew through, some people are not going to have power around me until the 1st or 2nd.  I am so lucky, mine came on last night at about 8:30.  I actually packed up the dogs and went to my aunts house.  I was lucky, she doesn't mind the dogs.  Then I came back because I had to work today.  So it all worked out!!

My head is still wanting a drink.  I think it's because I am just in a weird place right now and I know I am alone.  I understand and I know it is the best, but I am really all alone.  I had my friends and my aunt checking on me, but I didn't have someone with me, if something did happen.  But on the other hand my husband was never there either.  I would have to handle everything or he would have a freaking breakdown.  So, maybe I was (mentally) preparing for the worse by wanting a drink because that is what I did when he would freak, I would drink to escape his bullshit.  Let's say that's what it was.  When I was at my aunt's house she was drinking I was ok.  I know I can stay sober, because without sobriety I will have no happiness!!! 

The promises are coming true for me, look how blessed I have been the last few months, how things fall into place, just as they should be.  The picture to the right is my lot being cleared!!!!  YEAH!!!